I've Fallen Out Of Love With Blogging

So...long time no blog post. I've been trying my best to write up new posts for Darling Jordan and I've tried to avoid the actual reason and say it was just one of those times where I couldn't write. When in reality I know that I've fallen out of love with blogging, and I've fallen hard!

Blogging used to be a huge part of my life, I may not have been the best at it but I absolutely adored writing up about things I was passionate about, or even about a product I'd been really loving. This happened last year around the exact same time and the reason!? A full time job. I'm not an organised person, I cant handle more than one thing in my priorities clearly. I honestly don't know how people work full time and also keep up with their blog work, honestly I fully envy them and wish I could do that. But truth is when I get home from work it's usually 8pm or 9pm so the only thing I want to do is relax in bed and watch something on Netflix. By the time a day off comes around I generally spend it having a full on relaxing day and catch up with some naps every few hours. 

I recently started back posting on my Instagram and while I cant find the words to write a blog post I haven't lost my love for taking photographs. I don't know what it is but I just really love taking photos and then editing them to the best of my ability. Instagram is a little less than the ones I take for my blog, I like to keep it casual as when I stick to a "camera only theme" I just stress myself out too much. Sure the photos aren't anything amazing but I really enjoy making up little setups to take photos. While I fell out of love with Instagram a few months ago, I finally feel like I'm falling back in love with it. So I'm hoping it will happen with blogging again at some stage.

While I'm not going to stress myself out over it, I do want to try and inspire myself in some ways. I'm not sure how yet but I am going to start writing down any little idea I get and take it from there. 

While I'm not saying I'm quitting, because I don't want to do that as I am proud of my little corner of the internet and in somewhat am very proud of it. I'm also not saying you'll start seeing blog posts popping up from me within the next week because I don't know if you will or not. I'm no longer going to try and force myself to write because I feel that just pushes me further away from it. 

So while I want to come back to doing what I truly loved, I cant right now. I feel too much hatred towards Darling Jordan when I want to love it and it kind of saddens me in a way. I don't want to grow apart from blogging as it's something I have done for the past 2 years, and I feel like I don't want to throw all that hard work away, even if it is just silly little reviews and posts about what I've been up to lately because when I love it, I absolutely love it!

Maybe I'll go for a total re-vamp or maybe I just need a bit more time away from the screen of my iMac. So while this definitely isn't a goodbye it is a see you soon...maybe.

I do have a few posts that need to be up by the end of next month due to PR commitments so I'm hoping by that time I'll be back to my old self.

Until then, See you soon Darling Jordan.

xo 

Sorry for the ramblings, I just felt like I needed to let it all out. Also sorry if none of it makes sense, I just kind of let myself write and then pressed published because its real.